I guess I get embarrassed when I cry sometimes. At least I did this morning.
I’ve been thinking alot about the way that we can judge ourselves in certain situations. And sometimes we can be our own worst critic. We’re not good enough, we could have done something better, we’re not in good enough shape, we’re weak, we’re not smart enough…and the list could go on and on.
I read an article last week about how meditating and yoga can be opportunities to observe ourselves without judgment. We have an opportunity in a yoga class or while meditating to pay attention to our thoughts and not judge them.
What if when you are in a yoga class and your body starts shaking uncontrollably for no reason that you could just be with it vs. thinking about how weak you might be in that moment or how out of shape you think you are?
I was meditating tonight and purposely didn’t judge myself when my mind wandered. I just went back to thinking about my breath and didn’t allow myself to go to the judgments of thinking that I could be a better meditator if my mind didn’t wander so much.
I typically don’t get embarrassed when I cry. I think crying can be a beautiful release and for me it usually seems like I’m one step closer to getting to where I want to be after it happens. It’s a way to see areas that might need our focus and possible changes we need to make or things we can choose to work on if we think they are important enough.
I cried this morning and I was very aware at how embarrassed I was and how stupid I felt about why I was crying. Part of it was because I was crying in front of someone that I care deeply about and that I care what they think about me.
The more embarrassed that I got, the more frustrated I became and I even started to become angry at myself.
This afternoon when I had time to sit and be quiet and still with myself and my thoughts, I decided to cut myself some slack and just realize that I was feeling exactly what I was feeling and that was exactly what I needed to feel at that moment and that is totally fine.
The more I judged myself this morning, the more frustrated I became and I began to dwell on something that wasn’t even actually reality. Had I allowed myself to just feel what I was feeling and express it without judgment, the tears would have stopped sooner and I would have been alot more loving towards myself and the other person involved in the conversation.
What is judging yourself costing you? Communication? Honesty? Joy? Peace? Love? Living your life to your fullest potential?
I encourage you to challenge yourself and try and listen to and observe yourself without judgment and be ok with what you are feeling as you feel it. Observe it, take action or decide not take action based on that information and then let it pass. I think you will be surprised at what can open up for you.
I hope you all experience some form of joy, peace and love in the next few days to come.
“The highest form of human intelligence is to observe yourself without judgment.” – Krishnamurti